|What? Seriously? I am trying to take a nap here. Get the camera out of my face crazy lady!|
This strange weather is kind of putting me in a knitting funk. I feel "in between" and not motivated. My wips are mighty - but my completed project list has slowed considerably. I think my flirtation with the sewing machine and my increased work-out schedule is coming into play here too. I know I will get my knitting mojo back in full force soon. Patience and all that.
In one of my moments of thought today I was thinking about how wonderful it is to have people in my life who step up. Be it at work or family or just a neighbor who shows a kindness to me. When someone shows a thought outside of their own world it really makes me pause and be grateful. I think a lot of the anger I have in my soul comes from people who I felt should have "stepped up" and didn't. I am trying to mend my soul and my heart and I think part of that process is trying to understand why I get hurt by people and how I can stop the cycle. My defence tends toward isolation - but that isn't really good for anyone. So how do I get around this? I think more people would step up for me if I allowed them to - and perhaps asked them to. I keep forgetting that I have power and that I don't have to accept what morsels that are thrown at me. I can go out and get a piece of my own cake. Theory is lovely - but how to apply this to my life? More thinking to do it seems.